When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. – Lau Tzu
Day 1500 is here:
Well that flew by
The Journey: Days 1 – 1500
Day 1 (January 2013)
When I started this blog, I was running away from a stressful situation (work). Not only did I not know where I was going, I didn’t even realize how important it was to have a destination. I only knew that I was running to a pile of money that would allow me to be free from the shackles and worries of work. I had never considered what came after that. How foolish I was.
I also had no expectations for the blog. I wanted to keep myself publicly accountable, but at the core, I started 1500 Days because I always enjoyed writing.
Somewhere around Day 1000
And then it hit me:
You can’t quit your job just for the sake of quitting. You’ll be bored if you have nothing to retire to.
“Oh shit!”, I thought. What was I going to do now? I can’t quit my job. What do I do with this blog? The internet police will tear me a new one when I tell them I’m going to continue working because I fear boredom. I was lost and felt ridiculous.
Day 1000 to the Present
After much deliberate thought, the answers started to materialize.
I noticed that on rare days off when the children were in school and I didn’t have to work:
- I’d spend 2 hours at the gym instead of 40 minutes.
- I’d spend hours at the library, reading magazines, newspapers and random books.
- I’d write for hours, often working on five posts at once.
- I’d spend more time with the children. After school, I’d take my time helping them with their homework and then we’d going for a walk or play games.
On these days off, I’d reflect before bed. I noticed that I was a happier person. I even fell asleep easier (one of my constant struggles).
More than anything, I noticed that I never had enough time. Even when my work schedule went to three days per week, my Mondays and Fridays flew by.
Not my circus, not my monkeys. -Polish proverb
And, I’ve realized that the life that many of us accept as normal isn’t for me. Working until 62 sounds like torture. The world is wide and I want to experience it. There won’t be enough time in the years that I have left, but I’ll do what I can with what I have.
And I don’t think I’m so different from you. Most of us don’t take the time to consider a life of freedom because the concept is so foreign. I never once thought about financial independence before discovering Mr. Money Mustache. However, I think that deep down, most of us have passions that we’d start following tomorrow if a mysterious uncle left us $10,000,000.
To follow my own passions, I have to leave parts of my life behind.
I can’t be who I want to be;
I can’t do what I want to do;
I can’t live how I want to live;
without letting go.
It’s slightly scary, but mostly amazing.
I’m so thankful for it all.
Epilogue: I owe you so much more. My journey isn’t yet complete. One of the underlying themes of this blog is quitting work and I still have a job. At a minimum, I owe you an explanation of where 1500 Days is going. More on Monday.